wow, this is hard!....

....but I know it is gonna be worth the effort to re-acclimate and look to the Lord for all things-even (and especially this)

I know now that I must decide to ask the Lord to make me want to do this with a tenacity that will not give way! I need to ask Him to help me to "change the channel" when my mind wonders into the eating for comfort food realm. I think this is going to prove be a very enlightening journey. Surely, I am so weakand fleshy. I am so food oriented. I don't even want to go out... coz I assocaite it with stopping to get something to put in my mouth that tastes good... a bonus while I'm out doing my daily chores in this rough and tough life in this woe-begone world! oh please! ;S

I need to re-learn how to see. I am so blind!

I was once God motivated! I didn't care if I missed snacks or a rich and decadent meal. Nor did I care if a friend stood me up or I missed a date. Why? because my focus was God-ward. It was on Jesus! I remember saying to myself .. "oh well, that's ok" (insert whatever didn't work out that was planned to occupy my time) "It's ok, because I have Jesus ... a focused extra, unaccounted for, special chunk of time to revel in Him.. to share and spend learning of him, sitting at His feet, marvelling in Him... talking to Him"...

Now, I am heart-heavy to realise that I have lost my first love.
I pray this time of re-acclimatin and change is just that, a re-acclimation and change in my spirit, as well as my body and my habits. Eating to Live and focusing on enjoying our smaller portions of healthier choices will give our bodies the things we need, and allow our focus to be other than the temporal and carnal... it can be ('n it's gonna have to be for me)--a focus God-ward.
A focus on the spiritual.. deeper depths, mining out truths I didn't want to see...
...but Truth leads to Light and Life...and will set you free... I know this... and I have to say--count me in!

Thank you Lord Jesus!

PS.. if anyone reading here is venturing out n this path, I'd love to hear from you... If anyone has anything to share, please feel free to post or write me off-blog ;)

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